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[Nov. 13th, 2008|10:46 am] |
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| | Venture Brothers's theme | ] | So, my computer's been acting up lately, as a few of you already know with my frequent signing on/off of AIM and such. It has hindered my ability to use the internet almost to the point of not being able to use it at all. But, even so, I was still able to use AIM, which I guess was fine until I had enough money to fix my computer (or buy a new one outright. I so desperately need it.).
However, the other day, my computer finnaly up and died. There's a major hardware problem and while the computer will actually turn on, nothing will recognize it's hooked up. Not being a computer genius like I wish I was, I have no idea what the problem is. Many of my friends, though, claimed that fixing a computer was easy and even I could do it.
Well, I opened up my computer to take a look inside. I'll admit I know a lot more about computer than I did before I decided to screw around with it, but I also think I managed to screw something up, as well. After having opened up this computer, it will no longer start up properly. Both OS's won't load fully, even after attempting it over and over for a period of 3-4 hours.
So, here I sit, sad and depressed over my computer. ;_;
Sad as it might seem, a relyed on the computer quite a bit. Not only did I have multiple art sites that I updated, I also have LiveJournal, a Youtube account that I frequent, and not to mention the Online Radio Show I co-host. =\
Even sadder is the fact that this economy sucks so bad, that I cannot get a job, even though I'm more than qualified for 90% of the places I've apllied to (which, over the last few months has been an assload of places). My parents chalk it up to laziness on my part, but it's a bunch of bullshit. I've even lowered myself to applying at places like McDonald's, and even they're not hiring. This is bullshit. =\
So, I have no money, desperately looking for a job, living at home with two parents that pretty much hate me because they think I never do anything (even though they're away most of the day, so they can't possibly know what I do, they just assume it's nothing even though I've been out all day. Even then, they just assume I was at friend's houses).
Am I depressed? No. Not really. I've had much worse. It just sucks pretty bad. Not having the internet sucks, and not having a lot of people to talk to sucks even worse. Sad as it might seem, most of my friends I can only talk to through the internet (includes people I originally met offline, if that counts for anything), but what can I say? Furries ain't exactly common around here, nor are genuinely intellegent people.
(also, 'fore I forget, I'm on my dad's computer for the moment. I don't expect I'll be able to get online often at all, but I'll do my best. *shrugs*
Anyways, besides all this nonesense, my life has been pretty uneventful, per usual. My Xbox is dead, I can't find the cord for my DVD player, and my computer's dead, and I don't have my guitar amp anymore. ;_; So pretty much all fun I could have in my room is now gone, all I got left is basic cable and a box of pokemon cards. Oh, and books I guess. But who reads? Honestly. :P
Update on my sister, though. She's finnaly out of her wheelchair. She's still wearing a cast on her arm, she'll be wearing it for six weeks, I hear. She's got a big boot for a foot, too, but she can now put pressure on it. It's a bit weird, but she can walk around, so she's not complaining.
I was mistaken last time I updated, I believe. I thought her surgery was tuesday, but it's actually today. She went in not long ago, and her surgery will be at two. I hope everything goes well, and she comes back okay. ;_;
Umm... Can't think of anything else, really..
Oh! If anyone out there is wanting to chat or anything, I gots a cell phone. If you want the number, just send me a message or whatnot, I'll most likely give it to ya. With no computer, I don't gots a lotta people to chat to now. Sad foxie. ;_;
So, yeah. I guess that's it. I will talk to you guys as soon as I can. Just can't promise when that'll be. *shrugs*
UNTIL NEXT TIIIME~
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[Nov. 8th, 2008|01:26 am] |
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| | Seperate Ways - Journey | ] | Sister's home. She's gotta cast on her foot, and a sling for her arm, and has to get around in a wheelchair. Her surgery was postponed, due to priority patients (one of which was her friend, the driver). Her surgery will be on Tuesday, and she should be able to get around much easier afterwards.
She'll be out of school for a while, but she'll be okay. A bunch of friends stopped by, including her boyfriend. They brought her lots of flowers and gifts, and right now she's laying on the couch with pretty much anything she wants within reach. Even she thinks that's awesome.
So, yay for a catastrophie that could've ended up a lot worse. I'm still hoping for the best for her friend and her grandfather.
So, on unrelated notes, I've been sketching up some stuff. I have a fursuit idea I wanna get down on paper. I'm looking into getting one as soon as I can, possibly from MixedCandy.
If anyone's got any tips or suggestions or anything, please contact me. I'd like to know as much as I can about fursuiting.
As far as everything else goes... mostly been hoping for the best for my sister. And seeing as how that's going good so far.. there's really nothing else to report. :P
Thanks for everyone for being supportive.
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| Update on my sister |
[Nov. 7th, 2008|03:28 am] |
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My sister was in her friend's car, as she had stayed the night previously. I'm not 100% sure where they were going, but her friend was driving (only fifteen with a learner's permit..), my sister was in the passenger seat, and the friend's grandfather in the backseat.
From what my sister told my dad, while her friend was driving, she suddenly went slack (possibly a seizure). As the car was turning off the road, my sister reached over to correct the steering, but it eventually went off one side of the road, then careened over to the other side of the road. (It might have went back across, not sure). I heard a news report of a flipped car accident on the same highway as my sister's wreck. not sure if it was the same, though..
Anyways, my sister's friend had to be airlifted (I remember seeing the helicopter..) And my sister and friend's grandfather were transported by ambulance to the hospital. My sister was in E.R. until 2 in the morning (hour and a half ago). She has a broken elbow and foot, and she's got stitches all over her face. From what my dad says, she'll be okay.. she'll have to go through surgery tommorow, and will be in the hospital for a few days.
Her friend and grandfather, though, I've been told are in pretty bad condition. Her friend's grandfather is in Intensive care, and I'm not sure about her friend.
My younger sister is staying with an aunt, and my mom is staying with my sister at the hospital.
My sister will be fine, but it will take time.
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[Nov. 6th, 2008|06:40 pm] |
I really didn't think I could be more depressed than I was, with all this prejudice shit going around.
My sister was in a car wreck today. That's all I know, and I haven't been this scared in a very long time.
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| America, land of the free |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|10:20 am] |
Call me crazy, but I figured 'land of the free' means that everyone should have the same rights as everyone else. Granted, there are exceptions, sure, but for the most part, I should be able to do anything I want that the next guy could. No matter race/gender/sexuality.
So, why is it that the thought of me being able to get married in this country... is slowly dissapearing, the chances getting smaller and smaller..
I feel sorry for the gay couples in California, Arizona, and Florida.
And Arkansas can just go die in a fucking fire. A law was passed recently where gay couples are not allowed to adopt.
This country is fucking messed up.
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[Oct. 23rd, 2008|01:56 am] |
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| | Nightrain - Guns N' Roses | ] | Does... anyone read this?
Just an honest question. =\
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[Oct. 6th, 2008|08:19 pm] |
God, I'm tired as hell.
Anyways. I learned to play Panama on guitar. This is deserving of celebration, as it is the best song ever. I DEMAND IT. (By learned it, I mean I can play the entire song with the exception of about 4-5 seconds in the solo)
So yeah. Woo.
Also, Tails! is on it's fourth episode. here <-check it out. You can read up on it/listen to it there, or even set up iTunes to download it automatically. We've also got a forums: here
Listen and tell us whatcha think. We're deseperate for listeners D:
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| Tails! Episode 3 is up |
[Sep. 28th, 2008|04:05 pm] |
Skunk and I have finally uploaded episode three of the show, (A day late, but you can thank Skunk for that :P)
In this episode, we talked about our favorite artists, mentioning their furaffinities, and talk about fursuiting. The show's website is here. Just go to 'archives' and download from there. We also have it set up as a podcast on iTunes:
1) Open iTunes and click on Podcasts on the left side. 2) On top, click on "Advanced" and then "Subscribe to Podcast." 3) In the window type in: http://www.mevio.com/feeds/tailsradio.xml. 4) Click OK. 5) iTunes will automatically download the latest show. 6) To get any shows you missed...click on Podcasts and go down to Tails! 7) Click on the little triangle to the left of Tails. It will rotate and display all available shows. Just click on "Get" to download any of the other shows that you missed.
Have this set up, and iTunes will automatically download the show for you every time we update. You can also download past episodes, too.
Soo, hope every onelikes. If you do watch, please give feedback!
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[Sep. 24th, 2008|11:14 pm] |
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| | Any Way You Want It - Journey | ] | Picture meme, lolol.
• Take a picture of yourself right now. • Don't change your clothes. Don't fix your hair. • Post that picture with no editing. • Post these instructions with your picture.
( Picture )
Sorry for blurryness, but my friend's camera sucks sometimes. *shrugs*
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[Sep. 24th, 2008|10:42 pm] |
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| | Shout at the Devil | ] | Okay. So. Quick update, even though I know only one or two people read this still, and they already know what's happened anyway.. *shrugs*
I'm back at home, after two months being homeless. I got extremely sick with poison ivy and other illnesses, having to go to the doctor and have shots and taking medicine for another month. I lost my job, because I was unable to make it to work, because of my condition. So, I'm currently jobless and it sucks pretty big time.
I'm glad, though, I now have a place to stay, with somewhat regular internet, even though I hardly use it other than to talk to friends and play EVE whenever. Things have improved with my parents some, we tend to be less edgy around each other, which is good. I wonder, though, how long it will last.
Job searching isn't going well, I haven't been able to find anything for a while now.. It's starting to get really bad. I have bills to pay, and no money. i don't understand why noone's hiring, I've been turning in applications to everywhere I can think of. Working at McDonald's isn't beneath me at this point, I'm desperate.
On a lighter note, I've picked up my guitar again, because it's one of the few things to do while I'm bored. I'm getting pretty good, doing recordings and whatnot. I mostly do crappy covers (still haven't done one complete one yet), I haven't been able to really make my own music yet..
And I've also partnered up with a skunk named (creatively) Skunk, in doing an online radio-type show. (He refuses to call it a 'podcast', even though that's what it is). http://www.freewebs.com/metalfox117 <- there's the site, if you wanna give it a listen. It's just pretty much us talking about shit in the furry fandom. *shrugs* There's a forum, too, if you're interested.
Overall, stuff has sucked pretty hardcore for me as of late, but I'll be alright. I mostly have a veil of optimism with a few moments of depression (such as now) when I realize what's really going on. Usually, though, I just play video games until I'm happy again. It's how I fool myself into not being an emo asshole.
Anyway. That's all I can think of now. I'm still not 100% sure if I'm even going to use this because, as I said, a very few number of people actually read it.. and I usually talk to all those people on AIM anyway.
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[Jul. 29th, 2008|02:22 am] |
Soo.. I asked my dad about moving back in... I may have found a high-enough paying job to afford my own place.. but not for another month. I don't have anywehre to stay between now and then, so I went and asked my parents.
They said no.
I should fucking figure, but you know, I had hoped. So, here I am, typing this out on my computer at my friend's house, where I've been staying for about a month now. All I have to my name is the car my parents gave to me and five dollars until my next paycheck.
I have to leave my friend's house tommorow, to stay somewhere else.
Problem is... I have nowhere to go. My most likely option at this point, is to sleep in my car... but I'm pretty sure that's illeagal.. to just park somewhere and sleep.
So, here I sit, having cried to the point where I can't anymore. I'm homeless. I never expected this. Never once, did I think I would litterally have nowhere to go at night. Nowhere to call home, to keep my things, not even a safe place to be.
I'm scared. I don't know what to do, and no one is helping me.
Welcome to the big, bad world, I guess.
Suicide is starting to sound nice. |
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| Being homeless sucks |
[Jul. 16th, 2008|12:27 am] |
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Sorry I haven't been updating much. Kinda hard when I don't have a home. x.x |
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| Update, 5/21/08 |
[May. 21st, 2008|05:18 pm] |
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| | cold | ] | Okay, so. This Journal's going to be in two parts. The good, then the bad. If you don't want to hear me whine and complain 'bout stuff, you can just skip the second half, and all's well. but, I need to get some stuff said, If it gets read or not.
So, I've been playing Rock Band a lot lately, especially the drums. And, it's really cool, because I'm watching myself get better, and I'm starting to get a sense of pattern in the way beats are formed, and I really thing it's helping my composition ability. Plus it's fun as heck. The guitar I've pretty much always been good at, same thing for Bass, and singing you can't really improve on, I think. (Or maybe I'm not noticing it) So, it's really neat to watch myself not be able to play something one week, and then am able to the next. Not to mention my drumming abilites are pretty impressive, according to friends. :3
In related gaming news, I entered and easily won a Call of Duty 4 tournament recently. There were three other players, and they all talked smack, which made it so much more satisfying when I mopped the floor with them. But, anyway, I won $30 out of it, Which isn't all that bad, I suppose. One of the LAN cafes I frequent was talking about sponsoring me for CoD4 in a national tournament, grand prize being $15,000. Now, I'm very doubtful I will actually be able to participate, much less win, this tournament. But hey, it's cool to think about.
Another thing is that I'm finnaly looking into College. I know, I know, something I should've done a long time ago, but I'm finnaly looking into it. With the grades I got in High School, I'm a bit afraid, but I do think I would do a lot better in College than high school anyway. At least, all my friends tell me so. *shrug* I still got all sorts of high test scores throughout school, I was just mainly lazy about Homework. But, perhaps I can get some sort of art degree or something to that effect. That would be cool. The ironic thing about all this is that I absolutly detest school, and never thought I'd actually be wanting to go to college. Oh, how things have changed. =P
Aaand, now the bad.
My life for the past week has been every definition of the word hectic. My father has been waking me up at eight every morning, to go out and job search. Now, the first couple of days were good n' all, I got applications turned in and all was well. But then, I ran out of money for gas. it was at this time that my dad told me I needed to get the oil changed in the car. Now, sure, that's fine and all. But I'd like a bit of money to pay for it. After all, it isn't my car. But, no. My dad refuses to give me money, because he feels I should have to pay for it. So, I wasn't able to get it paid, because I used to rest of my money for gas, which was only about 5-10 dollars. I ended up telling him I got it changed, just to get him off my back. So, I eventually ran out of gas to spare, and told him I couldn't drive around any more, because I didn't have enough money to spend on gas. He tells me, then, to wake up at eight (which he makes sure of) and go to the grocery store to pick up a newspaper. He tells me to go through and circle all the most likely jobs in there, which I only found two or three. He makes me call him every two hours for updates, and tells me to add about five or six things to the list, most of which listed 'experince required' or something to that effect, when I didn't have any experience. Then, he tells me the ones I circled aren't good, because they're likely scams or misinforming, making me question why I would be using a paper to look for jobs in the first place, where the only decent looking jobs are scams. But, anyway, the next day, he makes me follow him to the middle of nowhere downtown, as we're starting to drive into what is pretty much the ghetto, we pull into the parking lot of a grocery store. He then tells me to apply there, and I had the most unplesant Grocery store visit of my life for the next thrity minutes, that is after working up the nerve to even walk into the place. Afterwards, dad let me go home, and while I was driving home (with my next to nothing gas), I informed him that I wanted to go to college. He laughed at me. I don't much needs to be said about what that means, but he pretty much said that he's not going to let me go, it isn't important enough. And then, you have payday. Which is today. My paycheck rolls around, and my dad tells me he wants me to give it to him. So, I finnaly take a stand for myself and tell him no. He then says if I don't give it to him, He will kick me out. Again, i refused. So, of course, he had his hour-long talk with me, and told me if I went out to go cash my check for myself to not go back home. I haven't left the house, and my check is still sitting at work, because I'm too afraid to go with the two options I'm presented with.
On one hand, I go and cash the check, just like I normally would, and put the money in my bank. Well, according to my dad, I would then be homeless, as I would not be welcome back home. Now, there is an off chance that my father is bluffing, and is only saying this in the hopes of getting my check so I can't spend it.
On the other, I can get my check and bring it directly to him, allowing him to cash the checks (after I endorse them) Into an account in his own name. I would only be allowed to use to money for things that my dad has approved of, and that would be that.
Oh, did I mention I'm nineteen?
Soo, that's pretty much summed up my week. I'm sure there's more, I'm just too lazy/tired to remember it.
EDIT: Minutes after writing this:
dad just told me I have until June 1st to find somewhere else to live. Looks like I won't have to make that choice. |
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[Mar. 30th, 2008|01:24 pm] |
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| | Call of Duty 4 menu music. | ] | Stuff Indeed.
So, I've recently picked up my guitar again. I'm currently just messing around, playing random bits and pieces of songs I know, and all that fun jazz. But, I've also recently learned *gasp!* A full song. This sound would bee: "Talk Dirty to Me", by Poison. If you haven't ever heard it, it's fucking amazing. It's also in Guitar Hero III.
Speaking of Poison, I do think that they are slowly creeping up the list of my favorite bands, and now only the god-like hands of virtuoso Eddie Van Halen stand in the way of Poison's conquest of my favorite band list. They're amazing. 80s glam rock for the fucking win.
So, besides guitar, I've been doing a lot of vidya game playing. And, through my obsession with electronic gaming, I've managed to find.. another furry. D= Two, actually. A Fox and a Skunk. I met them at a local gaming cafe, just hanging out and stuff. This brings the total of furs that live around where I do tooo 5. Including myself. (2 Red Foxes, Arctic Fox, Skunk, and a Wolf) So, been doing a lot of hanging out with furs for the past week. Haven't done much of anything productive.
During the week, I job-searched a bit, to no avail. It just seems like places aren't hiring anymore. *shrug* I have been trying, though. Hopefully, I'll manage to find a half-way decent job. I need money. x.x; However, I just recently got my one year evaluation at my current job. My rating waaas: "Meets Requirements". Fancy. This means I'll be getting a raise soon. So, woo.
Speaking of having my job for a year.. I'm pretty sure that makes me eligible for the deal they had going on at guitar center, where you can pay in small increments for a year or so. which I'm considering doing. =D They have a fancy-looking Ibanez guitar.. a red one with 2 extra frets. Extra frets = more ridicuously high notes. =D Oh, as a side note as far as guitars go.. My dad's decided to pick up guitar. So, for the past couple of days, we've been talking about playing, talking about the differences between acoustic and electric style playing. However, he and I have very differnet playing styles. I like 80s hair metal. He likes old-style country. =P Nonetheless, it's one of those moments where my dad and I can share a comment interest. You know, one of the times we actually talk to each other, and he's not yelling at me.
Also~ In a month or so, I will be going to my first proper concert. I'm going to go so Less than Jake (ska band) somewhere. Forget where. On April 30th. Later this year, i will be going to see DragonForce. I just really hope they don't suck as much live as they do on the videos I've seen. And, well, even if they do, at least I'll get a good laugh.
Overall, though, I've been in a pretty good mood, with a few down spots here and there. I'm not looking forward to this driving course I have to take In less than a week.. or the cell phone bill I got coming soon. x.x Gah. But, I sold my Wii recently, so I got a bit of money. Hopefully, it'll cover it all. ^^;
But yush... I've run out of things to say here. Soo, I guess this is it for now.
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[Mar. 12th, 2008|09:52 am] |
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| | Nothing | ] | So.. For the second time in half a year, I'm being threatened to be kicked out of the house. This time though, my parents say, they 'won't come after me'. If this does happen, I have nowhere to go. So.. *really* looking forward to that.
Apparently, the reason they have to kick me out, is the fact that I don't actively go out and search for a job. Which, is reasonable, I guess. Except I have a job.
Now, I understand that a higher-paying job would be better. I'm not disagreeing on that part. But I hardly think it's fair to think: "Well.. Justin's not making enough money.. so let's kick him out, because he hasn't gotten a new job yet." And, you know, I may not make a hell of a lot right now, but I do make enough to get by with things, living where I am right now. (On my own, no, I wouldn't be)
Which, you know, if I got a full-time job, my parents would kick me out anyway, and tell me to find my own place to live. I know they would, so what does it matter anyway?
Also, note the fact that I am probably the *worst* person at finding jobs. I have no idea how, where, or when I should look for jobs, and what kind of jobs to look into. I can't ask my parents, because my dad is *determined* to work me to death. The only two places he's suggested have been 1. A factory 2. A plumbing service. Which, you know, I guess I'd take it if I absolutely *had* to. But he's wanting me to grow up like he did, and that's something that I *never* want to do.
So, I'm having a real fun-ass time trying to find a job, and getting bitched at my parents for not having one.. even though I do. It's awesome. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2008|10:38 am] |
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| | Welcome to the Jungle (Background music on Guitar Hero) | ] | So. I woke up early today, so I'd have time to go into work at noon. I get ready, take care of things that need to be done (such as getting my defensive driving class scheduled. >.>; ) And I do so, eat and everything. Then I come down here at sit at my computer. And it hits me. Out of nowhere.
Post-Con Depression.
I notice I'm wearing my FWA shirt, my Conbadge is on the wall next to me, not to mention all the stuff I bought is right here as well. I suppose it's finally time for PCD (lulz abbreviation?) to hit me. It's been, what? Almost a month now. (A week off)
I guess it was just really nice to have somewhere to go, and get away from all the crap bugging me in my life. It was just really nice to hang out with people that were just like me, and I didn't have to take crap about it. (Well, actually I still did, but *much* less so) I can honestly say it's the first time I've been *truly* happy in a very long time. And, well, going back to my family, and having things go worse than they have been.. I can see why I would be depressed about it. x.x
What I need, though, is for more furries to live around where I do. >.> It'd prolly help out a bit. So you guys need to move down here. Or have me move there. Either way, works for me. (srsly, though guys. o.o)
But anyway. Guess that's enough of me being depressed. ;_;
P.S. I'm also sick. x.x
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[Feb. 29th, 2008|06:22 pm] |
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| | Limelight - Rush | ] | "You know. I'd just like to say how cool it is to have gotten the internet back again, finnaly. After two (Or three.. I can't even remember) years of being 'grounded', my parents finnaly realized that they really didn't have a reason for keeping the internet away from me.
It was really odd, too.. because I would ask my parents for the internet, and they would say no. Then they wouldn't give me a reason why (To this day, I honestly think that they forgot). But, one day, I asked my dad about being able to get on with my computer, and he said, "Well, you should be able to get on. I don't know why it's not working." When he, himself, was the one who disabled it. So, the next day, he 'checks it' and it starts working again. He claims he doesn't know what he did, but whatever. I had internet, I didn't really care.
So, I go through and I update my FurAffinity, my DeviantarArt, my LiveJournal. I settle back into my online presense, so glad to finnaly be able to talk to my friends on a daily basis again. A few months have passed since then, and all has been well with everything.
Until today. When I woke up and discovered the internet was not working, yet the cable was. Figuring it was some sort of connection error between my coputer and the router, I went and asked my dad if he knew what was up with the internet. He came up to me and said, "I sure do. I turned it off."
Yeah. Fucking figures. As soon as I start to really get into the hang of stuff. But, you know what the beutiful part is? It wasn't my fault. Not that it really was the first time, either. This time, though, I didn't even have anything to do with it.
My sister has apparently been doing some stupid shit behind my parents back (Such as get on our parent's laptop while they're gone). Knowing that I'd probably tell mom and dad (and, by god, if I knew that they'd do this, I sure as hell would have) she would tell me that she had already called dad and asked permission. (I later talked to dad about this, and he says I'm lying, because she never once called and asked)
So, my parents are now retailiating again my sister, by turning off the internet. My dad told me it would be inaccessable between 8AM-5PM. Which, you know, to you guys prolly wouldn't seem that bad. But 1, my usual work time is 5PM-11PM. 2, my dad gets all pissy when I stay up all night. So, really, he tells me the internet will still work, but only at times that I can't use it because I'm fucking working and if I do, It'll have to be at night, when he doesn't want me to.
Which brings me to something else. After explaining why the internet was turned off, my dad turned the conversation around against me (Like they always do) And brought up the fact that I haven't been going out and looking for a job at all lately. Apparently, my current job isn't good enough (And, while that might be true if I was supporting myself, but I am not so it's beside the point). I get more money than I need right now, and the only thing they're wanting me to do is save money. Now, while I have actually gone out to find good jobs, none of then have actually got back to me on anything, and I guess that's my fault, at least it is to my parents. I can't remember what exactly was going on, but I specifically remember my mom yelling at me after an arguement to "Get a job". Which, last time I checked, I do.
I really don't fucking get my parents. I really don't get my sisters, either. Hell, if I could have it my way, I'd move the fuck out, just so I could get as much distance between me and these people as I could. I plan on doing this as soon as I can, my most likely plan currently is moving to Florida with some friends. I'm saving up money to do so, and I hope I can at least get enough to make a solid living. (I'll be living with a roomate, maybe two, so it shouldn't be *that* bad (also, if anyone knows anything about living by yourself or with a roomate, and has any approxamate costs, I'd like to have a goal to shoot for)). The only thing about this, is that it will be six months before I'll be able to go with this plan. It gives me plenty of time so save, sure, but it means spending six more months in a house full of Nazis.
*sigh* Typing this has at least give me a little bit of time to cool down, which is good. I guess the thing that upsets me the most about this, is the excellent timing my parents have about anything they do. Sometimes, I really do think they just wait until I have stuff going to mess with my online life. Honestly, though, I should've seen this coming. As this isn't the first time it's happened to me. This same exact thing has happened before (Although, the first time it was a bit more blown out of proportion). I only hope that this is temporary, and my dad doesn't decide that I'm not worthy of the internet again. (I have sinced talked to my dad about the internet, and he warns that he might take it away completely if I don't 'shape up'.)
I'm mostly just someone between Infuriated and depressed. This makes me so mad at just.. how stupid this all is. I don't even know what to do anymore. It seems like everything I do is wrong.
I have nothing else to say."
^-written at 9:00AM this morning.
(currently 6:24, just got off work) So. Work calmed me down a bit, I think. I'm not as upset as I was earlier.. just more frustrated more than anything else.
It's just that every time I ever get used to having something, It always gets taken away. Every time. So, honestly, I shouldn't be surprised that his happened. But, again, I wasn't prepared for it. But, whatever. I won't be here for that much longer, anyway.
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| Wendsaday, 02/27/08 |
[Feb. 27th, 2008|03:39 pm] |
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| | Half Life 2 background music | ] | So, lately I've been sitting at home, bored out of my mind. Since most my friends are in school during the week, and I am not, my days off during the week tend to be extremely boring.
Yesterday was no exception, until I decided to embark on a little project on my room. Now, I have moved my computer desk to the other side of my room, switching it with a dresser, and moved my (quite large) entertainment center over. This has done many things for my room.. including, opening up more space, allowing me a better signal for the internet, and overall just a better position for my computer. However, this was some *heavy* lifting. x.x Overall, though, I'm glad I did. 1, because it's better. 2, because it ate up three hours which would have otherwise been very boring.
Today, however, I have gotten into the routine of staying in my room, playing video games all day. ..which is not good. So, later, I'm going to see if I can go out somewhere, do something.. I dunno. So far, though, looks like nothing's going to happen.
Also, on a side note, I've been playing my 360 online again. Name's "Metal Fox 17" If you have Call of Duty 4 or (for the moment) The Orange Box, I'd like to play ya online. =P |
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| Update. |
[Feb. 26th, 2008|02:52 am] |
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| | "I'm Alright" - Neil Zaza | ] | So, this lil' fox has been procrastinating posting in his journal as always, but I am finnaly here to tell you guys what's been going on. (And, honestly.. it's not that much. o.o)
Probably the main thing would be the fact that I went to FWA the past weekend, removing roughly $250 from my pocket.. and it was worth every single penny.
Despite the fact that I hung out in the Video Game room nearly 90% of the time there, I managed to get out and see some of the main stuff such as 2's Rant and an art discussion with Bonk. I also met a few Semi-famous furs there (Kipfox and Fennec to name two), and I bought some stuff from my new favorite artist, Fennec.
Also while I was in the game room, I managed to win two tournaments. The Halo tournament I had not even intended on winning, it just happened that way, but the Guitar Hero tournament I'm not in the least bit surprised I won. Out of these winning combined, I got $40 of free stuff. Not a bad deal.
I also made a few friends, most of which I regretably forgot to get contact information from. But, I intend on attending FWA next year, so hopefully I will meet them all again!
As far as other things are concerned, however, it is much less exciting. I've been working mostly, and on my free time drawing a bit. I've started drawing again recently, which is good, because I hadn't so much as touched my sketchpad since school ended (some months ago). I've been updating my FurAffinity a lot more recently (http://www.furaffinity.net/user/metalfox117), and it's probably where I'll be most active at besides AIM.
But, if anything else has happened to me recently, it obviously isn't exciting enough for me to recall at the moment.. so I guess I'll just leave this as is.
One last thing, though, I have my computer/internet again, so I should be more active on here. (hopefully.) |
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| Hmm... |
[Aug. 20th, 2007|10:24 am] |
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| | Fred Bear - Ted Nugent | ] | I should prolly use this more often. Ah well.
GUESS WHAT GUYS!?!
I have a computer now. Which means more access to the intarwebs. Hooray for me!
I'll prolly be updatin' this more often' n' such. Turns out this is unblocked on the school computers (for the time being), so I'll be tryin' to do pleny of updatin' from there as well.
Soo, as for how I've been recently...
I finished the school year, realizing I'm 3.5 credits behind. I have to go for another semester, and take four classes, finishing with a half a credit extra. Outside of school, I've been workin' a bunch, making a little money here and there, enough to get a Wii and a computer. I've also been screwin' around on Guitar Hero a lot recently, and turns out I'm good enough to get paid to play the game. Next Saturday I'll be going to a tournament, where the prize money will be about $1,000. I'm really confident I'll win, I knew the guys that won the Halo tournament personally, they go to my school.
I've also been playin' Second Life a lot recently. I'm really starting to love that game, it's really addicting ^^; If any of you guys have it, my name's Ash Ansett. I'm willin' to talk or whatnot, be friends n' such. I still need to find a way to get money. The only reason I have the stuff I do, is 'cause of my very generous friends >.> (You especially, Mathias). But, yeah. I may end up actually buying Lindons at one point, so I'll have money. >.>;
Also been gaming a bit, too. I'm playin' some Halo PC, StarCraft, and Original Counter Strike. You'd prolly be able to catch me on there doin' stuffs, if you gots it. I suck, though, so be forewarned. You won't get much of a challenge.
Buut, other than that, I've just been me foxie self, mostly being bored and hanging out with friends (admittedly less now that I have my own computer >.>). School sucks as always, and work's not much better. 'Least I got the faithful internet to keep me company in between all that craziness.
I'd also like to apologize for not being very active on here. I should really check this more often, I really don't have an excuse now that I have my own computer and whatnot.
Anywaays~ Thanks for listenin' to me, I suppose. o.o I'll talk to you guys again sometime *huugs everyone (specially Mathias >.>)* Until next tiiime~ |
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